The feeling of foolishness when you realize the thing you felt really excited about learning is something that many people older than you already know. You can hear them sneer, 'ignorant kid, were you born yesterday?' and they laugh. You felt you had discovered something new, but instead you've finally just caught up. Can this be embraced? When you're in the position of the knower you can find joy when you watch someone learn something for the first time, often wishing you could recapture that novelty yourself. So, if I can keep it in mind, I can try to be aware of my naive nature and savour it while I still can. I can try to reject the fear of being seen like a preteen being emotionally attached to a band they will cringe at in their 20's. You wouldn't scoff at a toddler for liking Sesame Street right? Different things have their time and age. Embrace the unknowing & the learning, embrace the joyful foolishness.

I'd wish to create fully polished art pieces, but that isn't happening unfortunately. So, taking this in is like watching a dress rehearsal, listening to a demo, reading a diary, or pouring over raw footage. What it lacks in vision, it may make up for in the baring of one's soul. A sincere attempt at foolish honesty may be able to drop a barrier to an opening in the heart, in all its ugliness, that can act as a mirror.

So much of human understanding falls into places like poetry where those 'in the know' can only point to the north star and those wishing to learn must themselves walk the path. I wish to be as clear as possible in my communication and not intentionally obscure information for the sake of being mysterious. However, either because it is impossible or for aesthetic reasons, I often cannot flat-out state information (which I so often wish people would just do when I am in the role of the unknower). I have to be self aware of, (and maybe even find joy in) my endless ignorance, and I hope you can forgive me if it seems I am pointing to a guiding star you cannot see (because I have unintentionally left out the context needed to see it - I'm just trying to explain things to myself). I am flailing around in the sea of unknowing right along side you, and I am excited to look back and see how far we've both come on this endless river.